Saturday, July 25, 2009 @ 8:42 PM
Haven't been updating.. haiz.. alot of things have happened. i don know where to start. so i'll just write whatever comes to my mind. Thank you Clarissa and Sandra, you guys are the major 2 who made me pull through this difficult time.. i cannot really explain what i have been going through.. its tiring, its tough, its energy-sapping, not physically.But mentally. Thats a thousand times worst. I even had to find consolation in writing poems. terrible, to think i was so happy-go-lucky. it had a drastic 180 degree turn. Millions of thought ran across my mind, Why? it lingers, up until now. Was i the one in fault? Or was it you that changed? I did many numerous soul searching, and always end up with, what was the problem with me? I got too emo until even "my dearest' couldnt revive me. Youve given me a cold hard slap of the brutal reality. We've been living in a beautiful lie and you knew it. Secondly, its been days. you've posed a question, why are we doing this? It was to find an answer, which i had actually found months ago. I didn't want to hurt you. Nor did i want to lose this feeling. Selfish is the word. ):Don't say what you don't mean it,
Don't say friends forever when you can't make it.
Don't give me that smile when you walk pass me,
When deep down you were just scowling at me.
Don't play with me,
Cos you're taking a big gamble with our friendship.
You should know what i mean,
You should have known what to be seen.
The poem isn't perfect. But it depicts how i feel or at least felt. Im so sorry..
Labels: Ultimate sadness reigns..