Tuesday, July 28, 2009 @ 5:49 PM
Sick. ): why? i dont get it, i was perfectly fine on Sunday. Then I started burning up on monday. Come to think of it, was it that.. (ask me what, i dont wish to say it out here) I certainly hope not. *crosses fingers*. Has too much things happened all at once, and unable to withstand it all, i fall sick? I have no idea.. But its quite obvious school is starting to get much stress. Just like a machine, everyone breaks down. I guess now's my turn. The feeling of fever is so wierd. Haven't got that experience for quite a long time until i couldnt recognise it as fever in the first place. So warm.. Getting quite lethargic easily too. Don't want to continue to write up anymore. One last point, Sandra. Im so sorry. I didn't mean to make you feel like this way. Why are problems pilling up? Plus the overload of stress. I think i might just snap now. like NOW. GOD BLESS! D: . Has my end come?Labels: sick.
Saturday, July 25, 2009 @ 8:42 PM
Haven't been updating.. haiz.. alot of things have happened. i don know where to start. so i'll just write whatever comes to my mind. Thank you Clarissa and Sandra, you guys are the major 2 who made me pull through this difficult time.. i cannot really explain what i have been going through.. its tiring, its tough, its energy-sapping, not physically.But mentally. Thats a thousand times worst. I even had to find consolation in writing poems. terrible, to think i was so happy-go-lucky. it had a drastic 180 degree turn. Millions of thought ran across my mind, Why? it lingers, up until now. Was i the one in fault? Or was it you that changed? I did many numerous soul searching, and always end up with, what was the problem with me? I got too emo until even "my dearest' couldnt revive me. Youve given me a cold hard slap of the brutal reality. We've been living in a beautiful lie and you knew it. Secondly, its been days. you've posed a question, why are we doing this? It was to find an answer, which i had actually found months ago. I didn't want to hurt you. Nor did i want to lose this feeling. Selfish is the word. ):Don't say what you don't mean it,
Don't say friends forever when you can't make it.
Don't give me that smile when you walk pass me,
When deep down you were just scowling at me.
Don't play with me,
Cos you're taking a big gamble with our friendship.
You should know what i mean,
You should have known what to be seen.
The poem isn't perfect. But it depicts how i feel or at least felt. Im so sorry..
Labels: Ultimate sadness reigns..
Saturday, July 11, 2009 @ 11:21 PM
So bored. haiz.. just don understand when you'll come online clar. some wierd timing you have going on comp. as if they were all scheduled out, at odd hours of the day. If your reading this, i just wanna let u know, im waiting for you=.= since.. 9 o clock. 20 mintues.. jeez. LOL. And WeiLin Jie Jie.. i miss you. haiz.. [omg.. kim bum! watching BOF] anyways.. uh hum.. im not a crazy fan of BOF. haha.. my ass sis, joanne, we've got the same taste. no wonder. heehee. oh oh, not forgetting miss rachel [guan yin] :P okok.. im irritating. i just gave mo mo ren a chance, is tht a right move? i hope so.. cause, in the end, i don wanna be the one ending up hurt. [hahaha. kim bum is pleading the girl to stop crying HAHAHA. so cute. xDD] i just saw mo mo ren number 2's profile, and i feel like puking. my insides couldnt stop it! LOL. i was so disgusted. and made me realise mo mo ren 3 is so despo.. haiz.. giving you a headache with all the mo mo rens? hahas.. my apologies! :D CLAR. U. COME.ONLINE.NOW. please? da magic word.Labels: Ever Waiting..