Tuesday, February 7, 2012 @ 4:10 PM
Can't believe im back here again, feels strange.On my way back from walking home today, i was certain i had to let this out. somehow. and yeah. blog. hello.
So today was a glum ball altogether. I don't even know whether im pretending to be happy anymore or just being the same like everyday ever since.. that day.
really? have i just became some empty shell? yes sure, i got all these inspiring quotes i try to live up to.. but in the first place, i didnt have any substance in myself to be able to achieve them.. what the hell am i doing?
Is our relationship that shallow? The fact because of that is able to blind you that you dont. i'll just stop there. Because who knows, maybe you didnt even feel the attraction in the first place.
things started breaking already when we broke up that first time. i can never tell you i love you, i try, but really.
But on the other hand, i get so hurt by you, its almost stupid to say that i dont care about what youre doing.
so much more twirling, swirling wanting to get out of my head, but i cant. i can type no more. im too tired of constantly thinking about you, i cant even find any words to comfort myself.
Pity. just pity .