Sunday, August 29, 2010 @ 12:58 PM
You wanna play huh, alright, game on. from now, im not going to be that old julia you once knew. ;) exhilarated.I cant wait to get back to singapore, somehow the place i miss most is J8? probably thats the place i go to most after school heh, and orchard road!(: its 1 here..
Today i had 2 dreams, both werent exactly pleasant, but i thank god for the first one.. it has made me feel closer to you after so long, i could once again sense your movements, the way you talk, the many expressions you let out, the hot tears i should i have let go when you first left me after all these years, i love you and i miss you so much, do you know that? how have you been? I hope youre doing well and probably even better, i hope your sore back is less hard on you, I'll always remember the way you got angry at me, bite me, piss me off, annoy me, hold me to sleep.. Im sorry i havent been a good girl to you.
The second dream totaly wasted my brain cells.
Well, it has been long since i teared in my sleep, now my eyes hurt. jeez
And well, i made breakfast for everyone today, pretty proud of myself since ive never did it before haha. And my dad kept saying its 'li suo dang ren' because next time my husband want me to cook and i cant even crack an egg to cook. and blah really, i wasnt listeningLOL
Friday, August 27, 2010 @ 6:15 PM
So today i kinda like walked home again, great exercise, burn fats hah! goodbye calories. I wish, hahah. so while everyone was hanging out at carlo court, im about 400 metres away snapping photos and doing just retarded stuff i havent done in a long long long time:D It was cool but now im hungry and WHERES MUMMY.( now thats pro rhyming.) ;) I shall just talk about today and later put the photos of the most retardest to the coolest one, get ready!:D
Alright, so it was a new day, and green was waiting outside for our roll call teacher to come, he never came.. *dum dum dum dummmmmm... i know right, LOL for my lovely singaporean readers, its like attendance taking but you have to meet up in a class and a roll call teacher would take attendance, and funny daniel started saying "OMG WE CAN ALL WAG(term for skipping classes), 8GREEN IS ALL ABSENT, WE'RE ALL SICK .. BLAHBLAH" it was not funny but the thing that a boy finds such enthusiasm in this type of thing got me laughing hard. (And once i do, i NEVER stop). So right, next stop, science. It was pretty borrrringgg! Had to research on scientist about electricity, Luigi as i remembered applied charges on a dissected frog's leg and it TWITCHED..?! euw, thinking about it doesnt bring much comfort to my empty stomach. And practically throughout the whole of science i was fretting for the next period... and youre gonna know about it soon enough. Well anyway, i would like to thank jenson(: youre such a nice guy!:D Well, rendering help to a lady in distress sure is a thumbs up;) hahah, well anyway, [omg, i just pinched a fly to death... and i cant even slap it to death, weird. zzz] And next stop, Health. We all had to present our scripts and act it out, if im the teacher and im supposed to award the group for something this is what'll be:
Jerry/Shan/Jack/Jenson - Best group in unnecessary sound effects.
Daniel/Jimmy/Ramindu/Smeet/William - Best group for gay costumes and hilarious script
You know what, the rest of the time, either i could no understand a single word they were saying or they were laughing too hard. I must really say Daniel's group is retardedly funny with all the crazy wigs and costumes to drawings on the face and split personality of a girl/guy(she-man?) HAHAH. i literally teared. I shall try describing, there was this scene where they were beating william up and he had like a lump of stuff hiding underneath his clothes( you know why?) Youre probably thinking its cushion or stuff, because thats what i thought, until they started hitting him and red small piece of paper started surfacing. ( get it? BLOOD LOL) And jerry started laughing and yelling that its a miscarriage, i swore my toes laughed and my whole body went into a spasm of laughter. AHAHAHA.
Right, so i forgot what happened later but like i realised during music, its the time where josh and i talk the most, he would continuously make funny sounds and its just too funny. And he tried wearing my ring but his seemingly bony fingers were far too big for it and it could only fit halfway through his ring finger, and, it got stuck-.- so i was telling him to get it out before i chop off his finger LOL. his face was literally -.-'' And guess what, his hands are soooo huge! O: we were like comparing and he's is really big woah, guys hands are so weird, protruding bones and long fingers. yes josh, i know you have those. ahah and we were putting palm to palm and his fingers could still bend! :S Oh shit im real hungry now.. Moving on, Geog, a teacher came looking for me and guess what... he said i was supposed to be in japanese class and not french, i was utterly speechless and somewhat sad and yet somewhat scared haha, i guess he could sense it and he went to ask mr hieks about it . before i left, he was like You probably thought you were in trouble eh?
At third place:
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Just kidding HAHA. im not that emo nemo.
Tuesday, August 24, 2010 @ 9:32 PM
Sigh, initially had wanted to post yesterday but i lost all interest to blog, lets hope this doesnt keep up. such bad habit. So today, once again, its my off day, i mean just like now and maybe the hours later, im going to be like this, and maybe no one can change it, so what if you can make me smile, gloom would find its way back to my heart and i'll just be down all over again, im too used to this endless cycle. I wanna dance all night, forget all my troubles, runaway.I stuffed up my english narrative today, im like debating if i should do 3 or 5 but you know, i simply gave up.
Sometimes, giving up is the easiest way out, when youre in complete desolute, with no little strength to carry on, the need of a boost is nowhere near in sight.. so my mood is like
______/\_______.. so lame. all i can describe my life now is really just fml.( not really)
Maybe i too, should remove me from your life. Wo hao hao hao lei. i wanna sleep on till i know time has heal my wounds and im a renewed person with new perpective in life, for now, its just the old julia, the one whos never satisfied, the one who is never a hundred percent happy.
Thursday, August 19, 2010 @ 10:46 PM
Why does it still hurt a little when i fall out with you?I dont get it, i thought it was beginning to stop....
What is this feeling im feeling
What is this nonsense im going through?!
WHY... am i upset?
Is it just me thinking its all a commitment,
or is this really what im crazily thinking right now,
is this the lengendary love?
Or is it some piece of bullcrap?
This is confusing me a great deal..
Friday is tomorrow tomorrow is friday, tgif. but also, id really like to thank god AFTER its saturday. tgis. because ive got stinky sat school sigh sigh. Jimmy, dont ignore me ): , you dont have to be embarrassed just cos they tease you about _____ me, seriously, lameasses, i think amongst the group, youre like the best because you know when to stop the joke and not hurt the rest. and youre a cute cute little boy(:
To _______ your name appearing on my fb wall makes my heart skip a beat.. this is abnormal too.. oh no. its coming back. that that monster.
Destruction.
Maybe love wasnt what i thought it was, maybe love is harder than what i comprehended.
Saturday, August 14, 2010 @ 7:30 PM
Oh gosh, sorry everyone, i think my blog has died and ive just dispersed into oblivion. Well, Weeks pass really, extremely, fast.I need to sloww down, which is exactly what im doing now, Im feeling so weird. Its like i havent felt this way for a long time.. whats this eerie emptiness in my heart? This, strange feeling of silence, this urge of wanting to let it all out by the doorways of my eyes. Why do i feel like hiding in a corner, going through every page in life.
Lastly, Thank you timtim, i love you!
Well i went for chinese class today and woah, ive made friends with a year 10! she looks so sweet(: but am i like the youngest or shit?! O: zomg.
Hey soul sister! aint that mister something HAHA. the tune is so catchy its lovely and light, makes my mood better, slightly(: truth to be told, this is the first time im listening to it haha, how slow..
School has been great. i guess thats all, till then.
OH.
GUYS HAVE PMS. I CAN PROVE THAT. son of *******.
Friday, August 13, 2010 @ 4:07 PM
Im not sure just whats wrong with my . But i do hope they heal.. naturally. My mum's gonna bring me to the docts, soon i hope.. Whats wrong with them.. What?! i hope i dont have to go under the knife..well.
These few days have been too fast. Like, its gone in a blink of an eye, will two years come soon? Guys in school are fun, they dont have to be boyfriends to be close, but some just fails my standards, such faggots. CHO NI MA MAN.
Okay, idk why but josh is really nice from his usual outbursts of vulgarity to like other people. Guess he doesnt wanna offend people(: thats what i look up in a guy.
Lets see, i like a guy that isnt afraid to tell the world youre his, someone that is REALLY gentalmanly and not just acting to get into the good books of whoever shit, someone that would stick up for you when youre downtrodden, someone that knows what you need, want, and what youre thinking about, someone that understands, i guess thats just edward cullen HAHA. alrighties bye i dont feel like blogging anymore, i really find jack annoying
Saturday, August 7, 2010 @ 8:10 PM
Lazy to blog. but pre uni shit is really killing me. ITS SO HARD for me. maths hates me so much sighhh~Today, we went to a direct factory outlet, birkenhead point its called. Bought meimei sport shoes and mum got one pair too. i was super odd one out la. the funny thing that happened today was that at the counter, when we were paying for our shoes, my mum asked if we wanted to have lunch with her friend, frank and i was like playing with the words, friend frank which for me, always ended up friend flank. LOL and then mei and i just kept doing that, and as we were friend flanking, the cashier guy was trying to hide his smile, so me and my mum found that odd, and my mum found the reason, he was called frank! LOL. coincidental or what. but anyway, hes good looking with defined features.(: he looks greek too. So i got my new bag for school, cool and pink over black, roxy. it took me ages to decide, simply spoilt for choice, initally, i wanted a carrier, but i guess thinking about it, a haversack would be much suitable and comfortable for school, just wondering how to fit my shoes for pe days): argh. SHOULD I HAVE A LOCKER?! tell me yeah. i need advice. alrighties, its 8.30, time for dinner, ciao! MR DAWSON YOU BETTER COME ONLINE.
Monday, August 2, 2010 @ 6:10 PM
Today once again, i shall post the daily funny acts of daniel HAHAAHHA. so first up, we had english after recess, daniel was talking and talking regardless whatever happened until the teacher called him to stand.Teacher: daniel, tell me, what are we doing now?
Daniel: erm, we're having english class?
Teacher: -.- go ahead.
Daniel: we're talking and the teacher's not happy?
Teacher: *talks some stuff about daniel sucking up to the teacher(so mean but funny)*
and then after that during bball for pe, he took the ball and literally ran to the shooting thing to aim LOL plus, he was screaming AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH all the way, thats so cute!ZOMG AHAHAHAHA. okay okay i love gay people and gay stuff and im practically gay(: (Y)
ciao. ive got nothing else to say.
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Sunday, August 1, 2010 @ 4:36 PM
First of all, May god bless these few people: Tim, Cynthia, Junyi, my dear lovely friends-clarissa, sandra, isabelle, yusee , art club people, peining, jiaan, alison(: Please god, bless them with everlasting happiness only you can grant upon us. Do continue to look after us and give us the peace within we all need! :DCheer up tim yeah, i know you wont see this anyway but haha, whatever, im not in any position to make you do what i think you should, and probably i should give my irritatingness a break. Im so annoying.
I love being back at nature, the place where i grew up from, its all so industralised, the least tinge of nature has been wiped out totally. The squawking of birds, the ticking noise made from insects around you, the sun peeping through the bamboos, its such a beauty. With the river next to it, shimmering at turqoise blue, the sky dotted with white.
Man vs wild. haha. trekking through the so called 'jungle' was tough but maneagable. i lost all my stamina since 2.4, however, it was worth it. very worth it. You'll love it too if youve been through what i seen, and there was this beautiful part of this reserve or park whatever you call it, i would wanna come back here with my best friend or boyfriend(if i have one in the future) or maybe just alone. Absorb the ying and yang people! its beautiful. really beautiful with patches of green and a bench under a pink blossoming tree, aint it just pretty?
When i can, when im grown up, matured and stronger, im going to find places like these and snap them one by one into my brain.
It felt as if all your troubles and problems vanish, now im not kidding, what do you have to worry about in such a pretty place, where birds sing and trees grow the way no one has a say.
Anyway, Once again, happy birthday Singapore! sigh. flaws.