Friday, June 4, 2010 @ 1:17 PM
Today, i shall not be polite because i figured you aren't to me too. Watch out.-
I shall change what i wrote in the letter for you. You're not worth going near my friends or even worth to stand next to me. You're a disgrace, a shame to mankind.
What is by right the people with a definite higher status to look down on you, you're being such a stupid thick-skinned idiot to think those people would kneel down earnestly and beg for your forgiveness? Dude, open your eyes and face reality. All these while, you've been downgrading yourself to this state.
You, shall not get close to me. -ever anymore.
Quenchana. Who are you to make me get angry over you anymore, get hurt, get annoyed, get frustrated. that day was supposedly the last day i was to ever interact with you again. But i broke my own promise to myself because you seemed so alone. so alone to the fact i felt i had to help you pick yourself up. And now whats happening? Oh, someone's biting the finger that fed it. Great. im the fool.
Stop it will you? You have NO LIFE. Your friends around you are fake. They, just like you. backstab you, calling you a ********* or even worst things you might never want to know. You're so naive, so was i, until i met you.
My mum used to tell me, friends are forever. I readily agreed because my friends seemed so true to me. I trust they wouldn't hurt me. Hurt. Hah, what a joke. You, on the other hand, made me the fool, but i should thank you right? You made me see that life is LIKE THAT. Even your close friends can backstab you and ------ behind your back. Thank. You. So. Much.
I told you i wouldnt be polite. So if you cry, its not my fault. You make people account to your tears. What about mine? You shove it off as if its li suo dang ren de shi. Dude, where's your moral values?
To the dude's sidekick, i pity you. You've got an AWESOME friend who so nicely backstabs you as well. Ain't it fun? backstabbing each other? yea i guess so, but sorry. i quit the game. Because i'm not like you two, who hardly feel any pain, and even if you two did, you'll just scold back more aggressively. So, tell me, when does this game of yours end? this is childish.
I don't regret standing up for you. But then in turn, got scolded back because of you, got beaten up, got ostracized even by my family. It makes me think who are you to turn me into this mess?
And after all these, you're still torturing me for more. I surrender. Are you satisfied? Sure hope you do.
People hate me because of you. I don't tell you because i don't want to hurt you. And you scold me because i don't show you the truth. Seriously, what do you want from me? Since you want the truth, here's one to you. You're shallow. You never forsee what would happened did you, well, surprise!
You are a selfish _____ who only thinks no one but yourself, you think you know so much about me huh, try again, or else, you can just blindfold yourself and jump off a building and still think youre flying. Someone like you, can be so lethal.. Well, firstly, you can go corrode yourself.
This is my last present to you before i leave.
I
JULIA.(your scapegoat)
REPLIES AND SHOUTOUTS TO MY LOVES.
Clarissa: i wanted to sms you last night about the dream pact, but i was afraid you were asleep, so.. (: you gave me the strength to write this to that ___________ thank you! I wanna go out with you someday. hurry! pick pick.
Alison: YEA YEA! i'll see you later;)
Sandra: Help me thank your dad again, he's so awesome! :D :D ;D And thank you too for making this a dream come true for me. <3>
Isabelle: you'll still help me blog about the class party eh?;)
FINGER FRIES SIR: wo yao zui gan xie ni, yin wei ni yi zhi zai wo shen bian pei ban zhe wo zou guo zhe tiao ou tu de lu, ee. moooshie. :/