Tuesday, June 8, 2010 @ 11:12 PM
Sometimes, humans have to learn reality the harsh way.And i had to.
Money, it makes the world go round. And round and round.
Nothing works without money.
You might say love is free.
I use to say that.
It really isnt.
Reality is harsh.
Too harsh for the innocent people to live in.
I don't have to roll out bombastic words to let the world know.
So maybe i'll keep things simple.
Simplicity.
We cheat, we lie. And the more we do that, the further we stray from god. I've been acting as a rebellious kid today. Sorry lord, this house is depressing. i needed air. What's the point of staying here only to see everything that had a memory to be boxed up and ready to be shipped and bound to a foreign land i shall call 'home'.
Why should i stay to see my parents, wait. i don't even see them. And when i do, it doesn't last more than two hours, their kept busy in their own world. I can't really blame them though, just like me, they have their friends to spent time with. So, if thats the case, why don't you let me spent time with mine. Why stress this already stressed out emotionally kid to do her homework and face the books. Seriously, what are holidays for? Some might think its the time to catch up with studies while others think its time to slack. Well for me, i shan't be biase and say what i really feel. But to me, holidays are a time to get closer, a time to get better, a time to gain more knowledge, a time for love, a time for friendship, a time for prayer, a time for everything we had wanted to always do. Why wait for the last moment to do the things we have all wanted to do? Now i do regret. I regret not treating my friends better, i regret getting mad at my parents, i regret getting annoyed at my aunty. i regret not saying i love you more.
if you think i don't wanna talk to you, its not true alright.. i just feel like shutting myself from the world and just concentrate on one person at one time, its hard to multitask, and its bad to lie "i miss you too" when youre having fun with your other friend. lol, thats just bullshit.
haha, i guess its one of those days where i get into a deep thought. im not emo ok!
And sorry to these people : Clarissa, Isabelle(!), Chiamsy, mffmff:/
Clarissa, sorry if you think im pissed at you, but i wasnt feeling too good nowadays. So i will contact you tonight, promise about tomorrow. Hmm i cant make a longer dedication. But yea. cheer up too yes? When people's happy around me, im happy. So my aim long ago, was to make people happy(: About my D_ _ thing... really youre the only one to know. so please. Don't let it out. I know its hard.. but just promise me that yea? So if you do tell anyone. i guess im reliable for it.. So, dont make me feel bad. harhar.. i love you.
Isabelle: sorry about the call you back thing... :/ i feel very bad. but i know if i do, i will hurt you again. so i better not. i can't multitask. And when only i'm extremely free and easy, ( not trying to imply anything here, trying to say when i can focus on something..) i will call you. And we will chat like before. one hour two hour? time flies when we talk. lol. i love you too(friends) later your dad arh. walau>:{ i will never forget. but its ok, its fun being mistaken with you hahahaha.
Yo bieber chiam! Did i make you anxious today? harhar, duibuqi. i was too absorbed in my show and i was charging my phone. So i'll pay back those 9 messages spammed(: one day. im spamming you 18. (my favourite number(: ) that shows how much i love you! haha, and remember! *does zipping action* i trust you(: even if you wanna say, say it when im gone haha, then no one can find me. Today was fun eh? two hours at bugis.. hmm..
.Weilin! :sorry sorry if you think i cheated you and went out with someone else, i want to watch karate kid with you.. ;/ and plus, its a outing cum 3 people 'clsss' reunion? haha, oh well:/ sorry im so sucky
i can hardly pick up my phone press the password and click messages where like usually 4/5 messages are being sent everyday.. sorry peepo, i lost my interest to type. But thankfully, i still blog. blogging keeps me alife!:D (though the mere thought of everyone knowing everything is scary) oh well..
hello this is my life. and its imperfect, i dont expect anyone, even me, to like it. Life doesnt give everything we want. Life is selfish, just like how we humans are made. No one is perfect, and no one is flawless. But loving someone flawless sucks too right!(imagine knowing that person can do everything you cant) So, love someone for their flaws. And love THEM for having flaws. :D
Peace out, and chill out(: byebye and goodnight everyone! (i sound like a reporter) O: haha