Saturday, June 26, 2010 @ 10:06 PM
Initially, i didn't wanna blog. i was too tired to. im not emo, just being serious for once in a long time. i was acting like a fool, so now did i realise. how slow..to _____, i really like you, it may not be love. but if you are really the one for me, it will come eventually, but that will be near impossible.. the distance is just to far. i'm sure you'll find someone else that loves you more, someone that can shower that love on you, im just not the one even as it might seem. Love is something unexplainable. Im very sure youre tired of me too, i can just sense it.. i want you to be happy. i really do, im willing to sacrifice anything within my means to do that. i thank you so much for the love you've given me, maybe i was enjoying it too much, and now its time to let go. i'll cherish everything kept and locked up in my heart. I really like you, so much i couldn't differentiate it from love. I guess everyone will just have to be hurt a few times to really gain true love, but i doubt i'll have mine, i've been too possessive, i wanted you with me, and only me. i cannot stop this, i dont know why. But i know if we're gonna end up together one day, youre not going to be happy with me, just like what he did, youre gonna eventually leave me.. i dont want that day to come either, if love was to invite itself, then let nature take its course(: well for now, be happy. and although i know during this period im not going to be happy seeing you with other girls, i'll just bite it down and clench my fist and give you my best wishes. the girl who likes you alot, Julia.
(i dont even know whether you know its you, so when you read this, please ask me? i really want you to ask me.)