Wednesday, May 19, 2010 @ 8:47 PM
I really hope my dramatic life is gonna end soon, like.. i lose so much before i leave.. i lost so many people, and even.. myself. Sorry people, its gonna be another tensed post.I realised that after that.. day, ive been numbing myself. Numbing myself till i cant even recognise myself, i dont even know what im doing anymore.. Im trying really. to smile and everything. pretend its gonna be okay, being like a simpleton that things arent as bad as it is.. when its in shit. (feeling so jittery now)
Youre a liar and Im one too, a pretty good one.
I think about it so so so much.. argh. slap me, just do it.
during art club, for the first time, i wasnt checking my phone.. i wish i was a cave man, and i wont know what is a phone.
What do i mean to you all?
Jubilate. Its gonna be the end right? i hope so.. I really want you to go, but i guess its impossible now..
the only way to escape reality, is that fake mask im wearing right now, that really cheerful, smiling, happygolucky(myass). i wanna sleep.. im tired.