Sunday, May 9, 2010 @ 12:09 PM
Haix, enough is enough, its pretty tiring, pretending, checking out the web and find out what youre saying behind me, it could be nothing, i dont blame a thing, but it does hurt. yea, its going to be the last day of korean class today, will totally miss it. When to chinese mass today, it was really empty, but oh well, it gave me plenty of time to reflect on my life, i think although my life was pretty screwed this year, it has taught me many lessons behind these, taught me the many sides of people, good or bad, nice or evil. Today's topic was about inner peace or something, then i thought about myself, i really do not have peace within huh. To me, as friends, shouldn't we accept people for who they are? Accept their flaws, and if its really bad, help them, guide them, to change for the better? People change, thats a definite, but if its bad, shouldnt we gently tell to them? Inner peace, is hard to attain.Isabelle, thank you so much, 34 days and counting is really hard for you, i know, thank you for all those times you been through with me, listened to my sorrows, though not saying anything, you listened when i needed you, knew when to comfort me, knew how to cherish time even for 5 minutes, together. Every night, giving each other calls, being criticise by your parents, and others.. its hard, if i were you, i'd crumble. So i promise you here, right now, i will forever be here for you, no matter how hard times are, im here, im willing to share your burden and hardships, share your joy. And i was really shock when you had the same thinking as i did, friends, there should be no secrets, everything should be told, no matter good or bad, we just want to know, love each other selflessly. This is friendship we both want, and i think we got it.
And to sandra, yesterday, finally we talked, though short, it was quite meaningful. Youre not my best friend, youre my soul sister. i mean it, two years its not long, yet not short. We've been through so much, been through those tough times, yet we were always together, i appreciate that alot, though we bicker alot, i know we are still forgiving towards each other, being so alike, we both dont want to cave in if we think we're not in the wrong, those days were wonderful, i'll miss you. Every moment is rememembered, for the following 34 days, i sincerely hope, you keep that smile of yours, and enjoy the times, reminisce at the times we spent together. I love you!
Clarissa, thank you for always being there, though we're not as close as before, i know deep down, mentally, we are always the same as before, and i shall continue to write more in blue, because 34 days isnt enough time to fill up the times we have together in that small book. i'll be looking forward to seeing you there, and remember, our dream house, beside the sea, living together, i'd dream about that, and i hope it will be realistic enough for both of us.
To babettes(Amanda, yusee) thank you both, making ayjei was something i really found exciting. We all have different characters, and we know that not all of us are the same, yet, though these days were pretty messed up, i really hope we can still be together for the coming years, meeting up with one another when we can, still laugh at retarded things, do things together have fun, really want to meet up 5, 10 years from now, imagining what we would look like, haha. Friendship is something we should all enjoy, And i sincerely apologise for giving you misery in any form, i know apo0logising isnt going to take away any hurt, but i do hope one thing, ayjei will still be what we are, walk down together hand in hand in the last few days.
Love you all.