Friday, October 9, 2009 @ 5:48 PM
okays, so now i know not alot of people is going to see this, i shall relax and write whatever flows into my mind. Or maybe, i would just keep more stuff to myself. i don't really know how i offended her for her to give me this much misery. But i wanna thank god for putting me through this. It was to make me stronger. it somehow worked. I don't really bother about her anymore, she'll write whatever she wants but if it was to get worst, then'll just have to report it. And its not like i dunno who that person is. How ignorant can someone be? Like everyone's perfect.. yea right. talk about her. she isn't too.2. Im really happy she kinda forgave me. And i had dreams of her for 3 nights in a row. hmm.. the latest one was when i was talking to her on phone telling her that the next day, which is today, has no school for the primary section and we both started whining to each other. But hey, that isn't real, its just a dream. It would be quite nice if it was true. The smile. It was heart warming.
3. When things go wrong, they don't just go wrong, the world turns upside down. Just as i was building up, I crumbled, collaspe and there left a scar. Scars. To make myself remember, to never forget. When will this hatred end? One after another. One ending, one starting. But anyways, thanks for ignoring me, it made me see that things are not so perfect as it seems, that things are NOT alright, for letting me see my neglection for others. But one thing that i don see. If it WAS someone's influence, why did you have to ignore me and yet, talk to the one that so called 'influence' me? I really don't get it. And I'm not saying i'm the one right, but if you don want me upset, why add up to my frustrations and troubles to convey this message in this manner? The manner i hated most. Why can't you take the first step to say it all? Im not blaming you. Not now. Not in the future. Not what a friend would ever do.
4. Everyone's fault is mine. My fault has turned out to be everyone's. Why? Has everyone not see how stress i was already? Think im so free to get insomnia over whatever others did? Make me ponder over it until i had absolutely no time to concentrate on the things i've to complete and accomplish? Im not saying like im the highest the greatest and that everyone has to remember me. No one is perfect. No one is. So am I. So is everyone else. 'Its going to be the end of the year, its up to you whether you want it perfect or not.' to the person i said that to, ily. I've realised it all. And i want it perfect.
You wanna show the world, but no one knows your name yet.Wonder when and where and how you're gonna make it.You know you can if you get the chance.In your face as the door keeps slamming.Now you're feeling more and more frustrated.And you're getting all kind of impatient waiting.
{{We live and we learn to take one step at a time.There's no need to rush,It's like learning to fly,Or falling in love.It's gonna happen and it's supposed to happen and we find the reasons why, one step at a time.You believe and you doubt.You're confused, you got it all figured out.Everything that you always wished for could be yours, should be yours, would be yours.If they only knew}}
One step at a time♥.
Jordin Sparks.