Friday, October 2, 2009 @ 5:29 PM
I don wish to insult you. neither do i want to bottle up my feelings, feelings are to be expressed.I have never pointed a finger at you, i merely asked a question and there you go, Bam. Cry. Runaway.Making me an idiot. making people think i bullied you. I know what you want is trust, but from your behaviour, have you trusted me? I doubt. If you had, you would have calmly settled the problem with me. Us. Alone. Without the need of having all these people around you comforting you afterwards. If you look at a bystander's point of view, shouldn't I be the one crying? But anyway,yes i did. i shed tears, but soon wiped them off because i knew there's no point in crying. Thank you Sandra. For all the continuous support and the hug i needed when i was there, alone. And thanks for your sms. It is wonderful to always know someone is out there looking out for you. While on the other hand, what have you done? (someone else.) Who is the one? oh forget it. I don bother to know. After that, you never even looked at me to see how i was.
Another thing i have to really really write. I met some stupid idiots on the MRT today, those gangster-wannabes should have really gotten a tight stinging slap from me, each of your actions and words have disgraced not only your school, not only your parents but also yourself. you people are so freaking young and this kind of crap comes out from you all. Honestly, i was super shocked when i heard those, and i thought i was hearing things. What do you all mean by those?
"YOU want me to prove? I hit you till you become blue black and you can complain to Mr ------"
But, hey its not over,
he went on to add "but i bet you wouldn't even have to complain to him before you're on the floor" That's even worse than those lame drunk pigs. There were about five of them, making such a racket that they attracted the whole carriage's passengers. I had this urge to walk to them and ask them to shut their freaking mouth up, what a disgrace! they've probably lost all of their manners and self respect. They also laughed at each other, i can't remember who but i can vaguely remember what was it
"eh, you sit down lah, this seat is for the old people(referring to the reserved seat) and fat people like you"
wth. Are they insane? Then the boy retaliated. Trying to show his prowess? I couldn't remember, but there was this part,may not be related, as they spoke so much of those.
".. or else i really take that sharp shiny thing arh!" - probably the knife.
what a din. They had white tees and sandy brown shorts. They also wanted to beat each other up. okay i think i don't have to elaborate anymore to let you know what they are. Well, to me, they are cowards. Cowards putting on a facade, trying to act nonchalant and make everything seem all right, when insulted, fists are exchanged. Insults fill the air. I pity their parents, for having this kind of unruly kids with practically no manners. Although most of the time, people tend to blame the parents for their child's behaviour, I beg to differ-sometimes.
ive never said i was perfect. i do accept my friends flaws. so what right have you to lecture me. you arent perfect too.